Future thinking

This month, I feel has been then month of death. Some old, some young and some just brand new to the world. I do not like to get caught up with death. But when it is all around you I suppose it's easy to. You start the what ifs, I have always been very possitive when it comes to my cf, I had never seen transplant or oxygen tubes a path I would ever go down. I suppose that's because I have always been so well. Who knows I may be lucky enough to see the "cure" or a mirie drug that's keeps me invincible. I do feel pretty invincible most of the time, and it may be silly but always told my mind I didn't have cf. I know I do have it lol, but telling my body and mind that don't has made me strong I think, almost like the plosebo effect. If you tell your mind you are ill, you are going to be ill. I don't know if it's because I'm xoming closer to my 21st birthday. I am very aware of the ones that didn't make it to 21, and I am so lucky that I will. Hopefully I will also see my 30th & 80th god being good :) x I am not scared of the future, I belive my story has been already writen , and I belive it has a happy ending and will make a exciting read ;)